Abandonment

Okay, well, not that I know that a lot of people read this blog, but for the most part I've been negligent. I am not in my power around Reiki at the moment. Or, at least I haven't been.

I had a really good talk, "Come to Shakti", moment with Josh. Since I have been fussing around the Reiki business scenario, I just make excuses about why my practice isn't growing. BUT, in fact, it is. Slowly, but certainly. I am attracting the people I WANT to work on.

I am not allowing guidance in regard to my Reiki practice. I am simply pushing onward and that pushing is what feels bad. Josh recommended that I ask to work on people, rather than shyly offering Reiki to people, with one foot out the door and eyes cast downward. In practicing on people and ASKING them, I humble myself (which I need to do a lot more, I realize) and I also give others the chance to GIVE to me. I don't have to continue to play the "I am Healer, Hear Me Roar" game. I can move forward slowly and intentionally and when the time is right, move out of apprenticeship/practice mode.
I thought too about developing my own program, so that I can set stronger intentions around the practice part. I can pay attention to and tune in to what it is I want practice in. I can study and work on specific things.
I have the gift of healing and the connection to God, but standing in my power is what I need practice in. I also need feedback. It's NOT unprofessional to ask for feedback. In fact, it only allows me to improve. There's my pride again, wanting to seem like I have it all together. Well, that's enough of that, I say. I want to help people. I love when a client feels great after a session and notices the benefits ways after we're done. I love knowing that healing takes places on ALL levels. I love that I too, feel good when I heal others.
So that's what's going on for me right now. It's good for me. Just because I can connect with the Flow, doesn't mean I don't still need help and honing of skills. I gotta remember that.