Empowered Hands

I had a great session last night. I didn't have a clock in the room during the appointment, which was really good for me. I was not calculating how many minutes I was working in one spot or another. I simply let the energy move me and my hands all around, where I felt called. The session was about an hour and a half but the best part came at the end...it wasn't rushed or glossed over...it was held in the same way, with the same care as the beginning of the session. It felt awesome. I heard guides (there were SO many in the room, it was like a party!) and things just came to me to tell my client. So great.

Every session I do makes me feel more and more aligned with what I WANT to be doing. Not have to, or need or should...but WANT. I WANT to practice Reiki. I want to engage Spirit in this way, every day. I want people to see the light at the end of the tunnel, to feel themselves, to be healthy, etc. I want myself to be able to channel energy clearly and with the intention to serve and bring God down to earth.
I love asking to practice Reiki on people. I love loving what I do.

Letting the Energy Move Through Me

This is an interesting new thing I've been doing...er, allowing, lately. When a client comes in for Reiki, I simply get them to share some stuff and then we "get to work." But since I've been doing this spiritual apprenticeship, I'm not really doing much. Well, I am observing, witnessing, and being aware, but I don't get into people's fields (like I used to) and "try to help." I'm using quotation marks because the way I am doing Reiki now is TOTALLY different than how I used to do it. And the SA is helping me see that I don't need to get into people's fields to be helpful or to prove myself as a healer. In fact, I find that I am able to see, hear, do, and be more the farther away I stay. The work seems to be deep (I have an awesome group of willing and open clients right now) but I don't need the slow dissent into the work, I simply call my guides, call their guides, and watch. It's awesome.

Today is my Dad's birthday. I don't usually commemorate his death, because I rather enjoy thinking about his birthday instead. He'd be 64 years old, I think. He's a year older than my mom. I was thinking today about when he used to brush my hair and immediately, I felt his hands touch my head, like he used to do. I have shorter hair now, so there's no hair-brushing, but it was a nice, comforting, warm feeling. I cried. Ricardo will be the Poppi for my kids because they need to have a Poppi, but my Dad will be Grandpa Richard and I know they will know and need him as well. Especially when I give birth and when they need some watching over. It's something I realized was really cool to do, have a 5th dimension guide, for my kids while they are still in Spirit, waiting to grace us with their presence.

I know that they will have contact with Grandpa Richard when they need to and it's really helpful for me because I don't want to have to keep harping on the death part. Our kids are pretty hip to the Spirit scene already so I have no doubt that this will not be lost on them.

Happy Birthday Dad!

Abandonment

Okay, well, not that I know that a lot of people read this blog, but for the most part I've been negligent. I am not in my power around Reiki at the moment. Or, at least I haven't been.

I had a really good talk, "Come to Shakti", moment with Josh. Since I have been fussing around the Reiki business scenario, I just make excuses about why my practice isn't growing. BUT, in fact, it is. Slowly, but certainly. I am attracting the people I WANT to work on.

I am not allowing guidance in regard to my Reiki practice. I am simply pushing onward and that pushing is what feels bad. Josh recommended that I ask to work on people, rather than shyly offering Reiki to people, with one foot out the door and eyes cast downward. In practicing on people and ASKING them, I humble myself (which I need to do a lot more, I realize) and I also give others the chance to GIVE to me. I don't have to continue to play the "I am Healer, Hear Me Roar" game. I can move forward slowly and intentionally and when the time is right, move out of apprenticeship/practice mode.
I thought too about developing my own program, so that I can set stronger intentions around the practice part. I can pay attention to and tune in to what it is I want practice in. I can study and work on specific things.
I have the gift of healing and the connection to God, but standing in my power is what I need practice in. I also need feedback. It's NOT unprofessional to ask for feedback. In fact, it only allows me to improve. There's my pride again, wanting to seem like I have it all together. Well, that's enough of that, I say. I want to help people. I love when a client feels great after a session and notices the benefits ways after we're done. I love knowing that healing takes places on ALL levels. I love that I too, feel good when I heal others.
So that's what's going on for me right now. It's good for me. Just because I can connect with the Flow, doesn't mean I don't still need help and honing of skills. I gotta remember that.

Holding Space

I practice energy work all the time, and sometimes even unconsciously. I don't do it accidentally, but I'm not always aware of how much energy I run on a regular basis. I had a feng shui consultation done by my friend Beth (fundmentalfengshui.com)and it helped me realize how much energy I use to harmonize my life. It happened to be my house and the energy that was swirling around it, but luckily Beth can help shift the energy so I don't have to do it myself (and neither do my housemates). Very cool.

I'm working on designing a workshop that deals with flow in life. Stay tuned...

Reiki in My Life

So I know that this is a very low advertised blog, which is okay, but I think I might change it to something else. While I like blogging about Reiki, it seems weird to blog about something that is actually quite subjective and also, kinda private when it comes to clients or even myself.
But I digress.

I'm reading a book called "The Joy Diet" which is really interesting. I've been reading LOTS of self-help books because when I wait for the bus or have time to kill, it's nice to spend it uplifting myself, rather than harping on the dirty bus stop, the folks who smell like pee, etc. Now I can simply observe the pee smell, and move along to bettering my life. This book talks about several things you can do each day (The Joy Diet) to improve your life. But the author encourages you to practice each one for a week in succession. The first one, Nothing, is about doing absolutely nothing for 15 minutes a day, for a week. You can't do anything until you've mastered doing nothing. I'm reading ahead, but she drills into you that in order for the next phases to be successful, we better be GOOD, if not GREAT, at doing nothing.

Today was my first day of Nothing. I lied in bed, fully awake, and just watched my thoughts ticker-tape by in my head. I didn't listen to music or "meditate". I just watched my thoughts. When I started to follow them, I gently brought myself back to the ticker-tape observation deck to resume simply watching them float by. There were many times when I wanted to LEAP out of bed to go and DO something, but I wanted to make sure that I stayed down for the whole 15. Luckily, I was down for 30 mins. This may be easier than I thought. :) But I have 6 more days before I MIGHT be ready for the next lesson. :)

Think Arete

Arete means excellence. Awesome word. I just found this website where Brian Johnson has collected all these big ideas from folks he's heard, read, known, etc. 502 great ideas so far. It's fun and inspiring to listen to. :)

Think Arete

I'm enjoying the notion that the cleaner my body becomes, the easier it is to allow the flow of Universal Energy. I feel good at work, I feel good at home, I'm having great dreams, I'm getting in touch with people I like, etc. VERY COOL. So there's that. I'm a manifesting fool!

Why I Practice Reiki

When I first experienced energetic healing (consciously), I had no idea what it was. All I knew was that it felt great. I was on the massage table and my massage therapist simply put her hands on the front side of my body and the underside of my body in various positions. I loved it! She didn't tell me what it was exactly, she had it done to her and just started doing it with her clients. The laying on of hands was really powerful for me. After that moment, I found a therapist who practiced Reiki. I still didn't really know enough, except for the fact that I felt good. But I asked to have energy work one day during a session. It was awesome!

It felt like I was swinging in a hammock, very rhythmically relaxing. So I started to learn about what Reiki was and what it does for me. The more I saw my therapist do, the more I wanted to see how I could do it for myself and others. I had already had some experience with the laying on of hands for other people (just like my massage therapist) and I wanted more technical understanding to see if I could direct it or affect it myself.

After several years (3 or so), I decided that I'd like to get attuned to Reiki. There were some intense programs out there, but I was simply interested in starting small. After the attunement (which is like an intense meditation, guided by a Reiki Master), I set out to practice Reiki on anyone who wanted me to. At first, I just did what I had been doing before, simply laying my hands on specific areas to relieve headaches, cramps, bring relaxation, etc. But as I increased my flow out, I opened up to more flow from the Universe. With Reiki I don't use my own energy, I channel it from the Universe. But I do have to allow it into my energy system, and the more I practiced, the easier it became.

I had, at this point, already discovered my ability to be clairvoyant, seeing energy. I didn't know it, but I was also clairaudient as well. I can hear specific people, and specific messages from guides, and I am allowing more and more audience as I increase my flow.

My experience working with clients has been amazing. Some people respond physically, others emotionally. Sometimes a client's guide will come in to a session and co-create with me. It's hard to even write about, it's so awesome.

So I practice Reiki because I am so drawn to it. I feel great when I receive it, I feel great when I practice it. It's COMPLETELY non-invasive, can be done over time and distance, and it's a magnificent way to connect to the Source. I love it.