Let It Flow

I've been having a strange block between my third and second chakra. It's not that my second is slow, or my third, but they don't connect. It's like I am good at trust in relationships, but I don't let that trust or that power in the relationship move into my third chakra to EMPOWER me. Friendship, marriage, family, etc. I let that energy just sit there. So I am working on melting the barriers. Letting my little girl guide me through that incorporation. She's been talking to me a lot lately. Reassuring me, talking to me, spiritually kicking my belly. It's a weird feeling to already feel spiritually pregnant. Luckily, no morning sickness. :)

I Get By With a Little Help From My Friends...

In a session last night I felt some more feelings about what it's like to be a lightworker. While I have been a Reiki practitioner for a time (4 years!), I have most likely been a lightworker most, if not all, of my life. As someone who connects with unseen beings, plants, and God/Spirit easily, it's not always easy to find others like me. I have struggled with that for a while. Recently I have found a few folks I can speak candidly to about my experiences, but I'd love to do it more and with more people. Everyone is on their own path regarding consciousness and it's just good for me to keep looking for others who are more conscious than I am. I know a few, but I need more contact with them. It does make me feel better.

I'll be doing a session tonight and I'm excited to get back to energy work.

Gestation

No, not yet. I'm implying that my Reiki practice is gestating. I've had a little break while our kitchen gets redone (hard to have clients walk through our "combat" zone of remodel). It's still pretty chaotic, as our kitchen is in our living room and our living room and dining room are one. I will be happy when I can go back to our separate rooms. :)

I've been thinking a lot about how I want to further my practice. What is the best way to increase Reiki in the world? While I love the one on one aspect of a private Reiki practice, I also really enjoy the teaching component and the group energy around attunements. Energy is so fun to explore that I would love to do more group stuff.

I am learning new stuff every day...less from books and more from experience. I'm wondering if it would be successful to have a group that simply has a chance to practice, hold space, and really explore chakra work. That would be fun. Hmm. Fun is a good thing for me to hold in my heart.

Attunement Ceremony

It was great! I let go of doing it the right way and it went perfectly! I had awesome music, everyone was super into it, the energy flowing was awesome, and attunement successful. Everyone had at least one Reiki guide show up to help and then there was just a room full of guides. Very cool. I am aware of divine presence 24/7, but it doesn't make it any less amazing when it's happening.

Doing the attunement the way I wanted to create it was really empowering. There were several ways that I read about how to do it but it worked the way I created it too. Awesome.

Doing energy work after that was incredible. I feel a lot more grounded and less surprised about my ability. It is helping me shift as I complete my apprenticeship. I let my self-doubt determine my fees, my ability, and my access to the Divine and yet the doubt is not real. It's just something I use to keep me vibrating lower.

I had a good realization about that too. I feel like I am working out some cultural/ societal issue regarding vibrating at a 9-10, rather than a 4-5 (mainstream vibration). Or whatever the mainstream society vibrates at...100-175.
I should dowse my actual vibration. Also, I want to buy another pendulum that I can carry it with me. Simple, lightweight wood again. I love my pendulum.

I am excited to attune folks to the next level and then the third level with the teaching aspect included. It was great times.

Really? Inspired Reiki?

I know the title of this blog is left wanting. Wanting to be more exciting, that is. In fact, as I am nearing the end (it feels like the end, anyway) of my apprenticeship I am realizing that I have a focus on healers and I want more of an edge in energy work. I don't especially relate to the typical view of energy workers. I know that a few folks I have worked with are not airy-fairy about their practice, but I'm wondering if there is room for energy work with an edge?

I already know that I work well with other folks who can channel/flow energy. I'm pretty down to earth in my estimation. While I, of course, talk to people who aren't physically in front of me, I see them pretty clearly. Some people have really good intuition. Intuition is to thought as psychic abilities are to the senses. I can see, hear, sense, and smell energy. It's real to me. Just like intuition is real. I haven't been able to taste energy yet...:)
I hear distinct voices and see specific things. Stuff comes to me intuitively and sometimes I am not even a part of the genesis of the thought. It's not freaky anymore. Ever since I was little I've been able to do it. I get better and better, as I become a better channel and energy worker.

So I will let the 'energy work with an edge' concept sit with me more. Something will come to me.

I'm giving my first Reiki attunement(s) on Sunday. I haven't given one, much less a group of them, but this group is special. I know them all personally and they are all healers already so I don't imagine it will be a hard attunement. In fact, I am looking forward to being able to channel more energy myself, and creating healing partnerships with this group.

My eating has been affecting my energy transmission. I can hold energy just fine, but I find that I am MUCH better when I am not stuffing my energy down, or making it really hard to flow through me. Raw food really helps with that.

I have been blocking (or at least impeding) my 2nd chakra. I know what the issues are, but I keep doing it. Soon I will choose to stop doing it. I will take a deep breathe and move into that space in a conscious and healthy way. Yay!

I'll update soon about how Sunday goes...

New sensations and feelings

As I practice more and more Reiki, on various people, things are opening up left and right. Each person I work on/with gets me to practice new things, open up to new voices, and trust more of my process around healing and holding space for others. I worked on a body worker and we did boundary work, which is ESSENTIAL when dealing with all types of people, especially those with issues, ailments, traumas, unstable energy, etc. I had never done anything like that during a session, but we actually practiced protection techniques and I think it was really helpful. I'd love to work on more healers as I think the healing profession, by its very nature, often neglects the healers and the care they need for themselves. I know from experience that healing others without healing yourself isn't very effective and clients know, albeit unconsciously, if a healer is able to take care of his/herself so that they can hold open and clear space for the client in their shit.

I had a healer guide coming to my sessions in the beginning, helping me observe and correcting me if I was harming myself, but she has since receded into the background, watching, no doubt, as I use more of my intuition in my sessions. I don't do Reiki like anyone I know, but I do practice it well and it is successful.

I used to have silent treatments, primarily, but I am practicing the more open, guided sessions at present. Some people like to talk, some like to have a moment of peace and do internal work. I usually know when to switch it off and on. Some areas need more communication and others need peace and quiet.

My confidence has done a 180 degree turn. Weeks ago I was eyoring my way around Reiki and my practice and now I am actively seeking out folks to practice on. It helps to have the apprenticeship, but I know that once I am online and out there, I'll be successful and prosperous. I really enjoy what I do and if anything, that's a great selling point.

I am working with Derek Dunnom on my website (FINALLY) and today I was thinking about business cards (which was a HUGE block for me a month ago). Very cool. Y'know, I don't need to know why or how I got to this point (there are several factors: hypnotherapy, an attitude adjustment, raw food, therapy, preparing for pregnancy, my retreat with Josh and his guided truth-telling, etc., I'm just happy to be here.

Empowered Hands

I had a great session last night. I didn't have a clock in the room during the appointment, which was really good for me. I was not calculating how many minutes I was working in one spot or another. I simply let the energy move me and my hands all around, where I felt called. The session was about an hour and a half but the best part came at the end...it wasn't rushed or glossed over...it was held in the same way, with the same care as the beginning of the session. It felt awesome. I heard guides (there were SO many in the room, it was like a party!) and things just came to me to tell my client. So great.

Every session I do makes me feel more and more aligned with what I WANT to be doing. Not have to, or need or should...but WANT. I WANT to practice Reiki. I want to engage Spirit in this way, every day. I want people to see the light at the end of the tunnel, to feel themselves, to be healthy, etc. I want myself to be able to channel energy clearly and with the intention to serve and bring God down to earth.
I love asking to practice Reiki on people. I love loving what I do.

Letting the Energy Move Through Me

This is an interesting new thing I've been doing...er, allowing, lately. When a client comes in for Reiki, I simply get them to share some stuff and then we "get to work." But since I've been doing this spiritual apprenticeship, I'm not really doing much. Well, I am observing, witnessing, and being aware, but I don't get into people's fields (like I used to) and "try to help." I'm using quotation marks because the way I am doing Reiki now is TOTALLY different than how I used to do it. And the SA is helping me see that I don't need to get into people's fields to be helpful or to prove myself as a healer. In fact, I find that I am able to see, hear, do, and be more the farther away I stay. The work seems to be deep (I have an awesome group of willing and open clients right now) but I don't need the slow dissent into the work, I simply call my guides, call their guides, and watch. It's awesome.

Today is my Dad's birthday. I don't usually commemorate his death, because I rather enjoy thinking about his birthday instead. He'd be 64 years old, I think. He's a year older than my mom. I was thinking today about when he used to brush my hair and immediately, I felt his hands touch my head, like he used to do. I have shorter hair now, so there's no hair-brushing, but it was a nice, comforting, warm feeling. I cried. Ricardo will be the Poppi for my kids because they need to have a Poppi, but my Dad will be Grandpa Richard and I know they will know and need him as well. Especially when I give birth and when they need some watching over. It's something I realized was really cool to do, have a 5th dimension guide, for my kids while they are still in Spirit, waiting to grace us with their presence.

I know that they will have contact with Grandpa Richard when they need to and it's really helpful for me because I don't want to have to keep harping on the death part. Our kids are pretty hip to the Spirit scene already so I have no doubt that this will not be lost on them.

Happy Birthday Dad!

Abandonment

Okay, well, not that I know that a lot of people read this blog, but for the most part I've been negligent. I am not in my power around Reiki at the moment. Or, at least I haven't been.

I had a really good talk, "Come to Shakti", moment with Josh. Since I have been fussing around the Reiki business scenario, I just make excuses about why my practice isn't growing. BUT, in fact, it is. Slowly, but certainly. I am attracting the people I WANT to work on.

I am not allowing guidance in regard to my Reiki practice. I am simply pushing onward and that pushing is what feels bad. Josh recommended that I ask to work on people, rather than shyly offering Reiki to people, with one foot out the door and eyes cast downward. In practicing on people and ASKING them, I humble myself (which I need to do a lot more, I realize) and I also give others the chance to GIVE to me. I don't have to continue to play the "I am Healer, Hear Me Roar" game. I can move forward slowly and intentionally and when the time is right, move out of apprenticeship/practice mode.
I thought too about developing my own program, so that I can set stronger intentions around the practice part. I can pay attention to and tune in to what it is I want practice in. I can study and work on specific things.
I have the gift of healing and the connection to God, but standing in my power is what I need practice in. I also need feedback. It's NOT unprofessional to ask for feedback. In fact, it only allows me to improve. There's my pride again, wanting to seem like I have it all together. Well, that's enough of that, I say. I want to help people. I love when a client feels great after a session and notices the benefits ways after we're done. I love knowing that healing takes places on ALL levels. I love that I too, feel good when I heal others.
So that's what's going on for me right now. It's good for me. Just because I can connect with the Flow, doesn't mean I don't still need help and honing of skills. I gotta remember that.

Holding Space

I practice energy work all the time, and sometimes even unconsciously. I don't do it accidentally, but I'm not always aware of how much energy I run on a regular basis. I had a feng shui consultation done by my friend Beth (fundmentalfengshui.com)and it helped me realize how much energy I use to harmonize my life. It happened to be my house and the energy that was swirling around it, but luckily Beth can help shift the energy so I don't have to do it myself (and neither do my housemates). Very cool.

I'm working on designing a workshop that deals with flow in life. Stay tuned...

Reiki in My Life

So I know that this is a very low advertised blog, which is okay, but I think I might change it to something else. While I like blogging about Reiki, it seems weird to blog about something that is actually quite subjective and also, kinda private when it comes to clients or even myself.
But I digress.

I'm reading a book called "The Joy Diet" which is really interesting. I've been reading LOTS of self-help books because when I wait for the bus or have time to kill, it's nice to spend it uplifting myself, rather than harping on the dirty bus stop, the folks who smell like pee, etc. Now I can simply observe the pee smell, and move along to bettering my life. This book talks about several things you can do each day (The Joy Diet) to improve your life. But the author encourages you to practice each one for a week in succession. The first one, Nothing, is about doing absolutely nothing for 15 minutes a day, for a week. You can't do anything until you've mastered doing nothing. I'm reading ahead, but she drills into you that in order for the next phases to be successful, we better be GOOD, if not GREAT, at doing nothing.

Today was my first day of Nothing. I lied in bed, fully awake, and just watched my thoughts ticker-tape by in my head. I didn't listen to music or "meditate". I just watched my thoughts. When I started to follow them, I gently brought myself back to the ticker-tape observation deck to resume simply watching them float by. There were many times when I wanted to LEAP out of bed to go and DO something, but I wanted to make sure that I stayed down for the whole 15. Luckily, I was down for 30 mins. This may be easier than I thought. :) But I have 6 more days before I MIGHT be ready for the next lesson. :)

Think Arete

Arete means excellence. Awesome word. I just found this website where Brian Johnson has collected all these big ideas from folks he's heard, read, known, etc. 502 great ideas so far. It's fun and inspiring to listen to. :)

Think Arete

I'm enjoying the notion that the cleaner my body becomes, the easier it is to allow the flow of Universal Energy. I feel good at work, I feel good at home, I'm having great dreams, I'm getting in touch with people I like, etc. VERY COOL. So there's that. I'm a manifesting fool!

Why I Practice Reiki

When I first experienced energetic healing (consciously), I had no idea what it was. All I knew was that it felt great. I was on the massage table and my massage therapist simply put her hands on the front side of my body and the underside of my body in various positions. I loved it! She didn't tell me what it was exactly, she had it done to her and just started doing it with her clients. The laying on of hands was really powerful for me. After that moment, I found a therapist who practiced Reiki. I still didn't really know enough, except for the fact that I felt good. But I asked to have energy work one day during a session. It was awesome!

It felt like I was swinging in a hammock, very rhythmically relaxing. So I started to learn about what Reiki was and what it does for me. The more I saw my therapist do, the more I wanted to see how I could do it for myself and others. I had already had some experience with the laying on of hands for other people (just like my massage therapist) and I wanted more technical understanding to see if I could direct it or affect it myself.

After several years (3 or so), I decided that I'd like to get attuned to Reiki. There were some intense programs out there, but I was simply interested in starting small. After the attunement (which is like an intense meditation, guided by a Reiki Master), I set out to practice Reiki on anyone who wanted me to. At first, I just did what I had been doing before, simply laying my hands on specific areas to relieve headaches, cramps, bring relaxation, etc. But as I increased my flow out, I opened up to more flow from the Universe. With Reiki I don't use my own energy, I channel it from the Universe. But I do have to allow it into my energy system, and the more I practiced, the easier it became.

I had, at this point, already discovered my ability to be clairvoyant, seeing energy. I didn't know it, but I was also clairaudient as well. I can hear specific people, and specific messages from guides, and I am allowing more and more audience as I increase my flow.

My experience working with clients has been amazing. Some people respond physically, others emotionally. Sometimes a client's guide will come in to a session and co-create with me. It's hard to even write about, it's so awesome.

So I practice Reiki because I am so drawn to it. I feel great when I receive it, I feel great when I practice it. It's COMPLETELY non-invasive, can be done over time and distance, and it's a magnificent way to connect to the Source. I love it.

Celebration

The Law of Attraction and the Law of Allowing are teaching me a lot these days. I can either, paddle upstream, against the Current, trying to get what I want OR I can stop paddling, let the Current turn me downstream and successfully get EVERYTHING I want with no struggle.

I feel a sense of Celebration because I am learning, very quickly, when I am paddling upstream so that I can simply stop paddling and let my guide, my Inner Being, and the Source (all the same energy) take me downstream to all the abundance I desire. That's a cause for celebration, indeed!

Inspiration

Great Angel card. When I focus on energizing thoughts, I am inspired to act. Going to Italy, living at/in Findhorn, being with Josh, eating raw food, practicing Reiki, and writing all make me smile and bring me back to those moments. I am learning that the past, while nice to look back at, doesn't help us create the future.

As I transition away from my desk job in the law firm, I think about the lighting and warmth in my Reiki space. I think about healing music that resonates in my own body as well as the body of those I am working on. I think about wearing natural fibers, about my hands getting hot from channeling, and about clients telling me that they are feeling much better after our time together.

I think about how I can Reiki my raw food creations. I think about how I can bring raw food and Reiki together, about how I can teach classes, lead retreats, and create a delicious garden when all the unseen beings in my life can feel free to visit.

I hold people I know, whose work I admire, in my heart and thoughts, so that I may vibrate as high as they vibrate, so that I can connect with the Source on a more regular basis.

I laid awake this morning thinking about how I'm going to inhabit my Reiki space. Right now, it's Stan's space, but I am moving things down there, and infusing it with my energy so that I can welcome clients as soon as possible. Space has to be right.

I'll be working on our ingenius curtain this weekend!

Expansiveness

I've been reading Abraham-Hicks books (by Esther and Jerry Hicks), and the Sunfood Diet Success System by David Wolfe, and they all mainly talk about Law of Attraction. The SDSS book talks about more than that, but overall, I see that Law of Attraction is really an important part.
When I am able to feel *good*, then I can attract my desires. When I am lingering in the "I won't get it anyway" feelings, I surely won't get anything, except more yucky feelings. It helps to have some goals to work toward. It's nice to have a vision statement, mission statement, 1-3 year strategy plan, and goals for yourself so that you know what you are working toward and the Universe has a clear idea what it needs to bring to you.

So Expansiveness energy (Angel Card of the Day) works well here. I use the energy of expansiveness to move beyond my self-imposed limitations. I know that I will get Reiki clients when I am ready for them. Right now I am working on the room and on business cards. My clients come easily and willingly. They are ready to grow and expand. They are intuitive, focused, and full of abundance.

Release

Since "release" is my Angel card for the year, it makes sense to bring it into my daily life.

Money is just energy. Granted, it's energy we put a lot of effort into creating, but nonetheless, it's energy. My tendency regarding energy is to hoard it because I am afraid I won't get anymore, or at least, I won't get anymore soon without work, struggle, and having to ask for it from someone else (taking away THEIR energy).

Since this year is about releasing, I realize that it's not just about releasing patterns, but for me, it's also about releasing energy into the Universe. Energy like time, money/abundance, gratitude, forgiveness. I hold on to everything to make sure I am doing everything perfectly right and then of course, I can't ever really do everything perfectly, so I don't let go/release very easily. I can let go even though it may not be perfect. Ha ha!

So I'm going to work on releasing, not just excess, but energy. I hope to get to a point where excess doesn't come in just so I can hold on it, but my entire container of abundance increases because I let more go. I DO have a lot more to let go of!

Vision Board

I write another blog about my journey eating raw foods and I subscribe to many newsletters that talk about raw food. Karen Knowler, The Raw Food Coach, posted on her website recently how to do a vision board for raw food. You can do it for anything, of course, so here's the link if you wanted to do a Reiki vision board.

Feel free to email any pics of your board and I will post them on this site! I'm also going to do one for my own Reiki practice.

Kindness

That's my angel card for the day. How can I use that energy today? I can be kinder to my co-workers.

Angel Card for the Year

RELEASE!

This is a great card for the year as I strengthen my Reiki practice, letting go of my job at the law firm, and preparing to start growing our family.


This is the angel card from Findhorn that you can just go to and get each day. It's a good one for the beginning of the year.